(this blog is dedicated to my mom. Mom, without your constant support, no matter the circumstance, or what was against me, I wouldn’t be the man I am today, and who I am becoming. I love you more than you’ll ever know. Now get the tissues, dry those tears, you have a blog to read, tears and keyboards don’t make a good combination!)
“You’re gonna do great things.”
That is something that I have heard my whole life. I have been challenged my whole life to blow apart labels that are put on me.
“You’re gonna do great things.”
If you know me then you probably know that I was diagnosed ADHD at a young age, and further down the line diagnosed bipolar. That combination doesn’t usually amount to leading a regular life. Most people who are diagnosed with that combination rely on medication to help them cope with the world. Even on medication, those people live a life inhibited by their diagnosis. Well, I blew that expectation out of the water, as a freshman in high school, I talked with my mom about stopping the medication, the doctor’s visits, the psychiatric evaluations. And for some reason, she agreed. She supported my decision, and for the life of me I can’t tell you why. It wasn’t easy for any of my family, shoot it was ROUGH. For years, I drove my parents insane, even at a few points had cops called on me. But through all of this I grew. I succeeded in what I set out to do as a freshman in high school.
“You’re gonna do great things.”
Shortly after I was diagnosed ADHD in elementary school, people saw potential in me. They said I had a brilliant mind, even one of my teachers said that I would “discover the cure for cancer, but forget where I put it.” (Brilliant, not necessarily organized) I was the first to read in my kindergarten class, and the teacher made me read that book to the second graders down the hall, and in second grade I checked out, read, and grasped Herman Melville’s “Moby Dick”. So I was put in the accelerated classes, or should I say, when my third grade class began “math time” I would grab my 4th grade math book and head to the library, to come back shortly after with my assignment complete, and right. My standardized reading scores in elementary school came out to show that I could read and comprehend books at a post-high school level. Even after all of this my mom was constantly challenging me, if I brought home a 98 on a test, she wanted a 100. If I brought home a 100, she wondered why I didn’t do the bonus question! She saw potential in me, along with all of my teachers. I am sad to say that halfway through middle school I stopped applying myself. I got bored with it, and I regret it. But people still saw the potential in me, and they continued to challenge me even to this point in my life.
“You’re gonna do great things.”
I decided eighth grade to sign up for NJROTC in high school. My mom told me it was a full four-year commitment, and I agreed. I found something I wanted to really apply myself at, and come my sophomore year, I was already an officer in the unit. The summer before my junior year I was invited to attend the prestigious Leadership Academy, where the top 2% of the cadets of the region went to be taught about military leadership. Myself and one other guy were the only ones from my high school to attend, and I was the only one to actually make it through the week. On my return to the unit I was the first junior in the history of the unit to be appointed second-in-command, the Executive Officer. I began to grasp just a little bit of my talent as a leader.
“You’re gonna do great things.”
On August 5, 2007 I was at a youth camp in Panama City Beach, Florida. Maybe a month before that I had began attending church at Family Life Church in Brunswick, GA. (www.familylife.ws) That night i was in a small room with a bunch of people I really didn’t know at the time, and the senior pastor spoke. Through his sermon God grabbed hold of me. That was the moment my life changed. Everything that came before this moment was just the stretching before the run. I gave my life to Christ, and I’m pretty sure now I know what he was thinking at that moment I came to his feet.
“You’re gonna do great things.”
At that point, my plans after graduation were to receive a scholarship through the Navy to go to an aeronautical university and learn to fly. Well, God had a different plan. He seemed to think that I was fit for ministry, and I felt the tug on my heart after the scholarship fell through to pursue a career in youth ministry. For a year and a half I interned at Family Life Church with the youth group, and over this time, I learned so much about who I was in Christ, and really began to realize that I had an uncanny knack for leadership. I spoke on the radio to surrounding counties three times, and was at the church any time I could be. I loved it. And I began to hear a slight whisper…
“You’re gonna do great things.”
Throughout this time, I dated a girl for a year and a half. She was phenomenal. We were great together. I felt loved. For the first time in my life, there was a girl who actually liked being around me for more than two minutes. However, the relationship turned, things happened that shouldn’t have, and I began to put that relationship before what God had planned. That whisper dimmed to a breeze that would rustle by every now and then.
“You’re gonna do great things.”
After a year and a half that relationship flopped. I was devastated. Hardest part of my life. But through that hurt, God was there repairing me, and still telling me…
“You’re gonna do great things.”
“Hello, I am an Admission Counselor from Toccoa Falls College, do you have a minute to talk?” Thats how the phone call started not even a week after the break up. Through the turmoil I was dealing with inside I felt a leap for joy that was surely unexpected. Long story short, I applied, got accepted, and planned on moving and starting a new life less than two months from that first phone call. When my mom and little brother and I went for the campus tour, I felt alive again. I knew it was where I was supposed to be. When we walked in the chapel I looked at my mom, and she just kind of grinned at me. Later on the drive home I told her what my first thought was when I walked in there. “I didn’t want to say it when we went in and look arrogant in front of the tour guide, but I am going to speak in that chapel before I graduate.” My mom replied with, “I knew that was exactly what you were thinking.” At this point, God was speaking to be louder than before, lovingly saying…
“You’re gonna do great things.”
Well I have been here for a year now, and I have grown so much. I have had so much more growth than I thought was possible in my life. I started over when I came here, I knew I was coming with a clean slate, and I wanted to make the best of it. I went from the quiet(ish), lonesome, Josh of Brunswick, GA, to the friendly, loud, eccentric, crazy, hyper, Josh of Toccoa, GA. I surprised myself at how easily I made friends, and how they seemed to see things in me right off the bat that I had only heard whispers of.
“You’re gonna do great things.”
I have spoke in that chapel three times already. And every time I have delivered a message that came straight from God. Everytime I have heard from people…
“You’re gonna do great things.”
I am at a point right now writing this where it has become as loud as a roll of thunder…
“You’re gonna do great things.”
I used to not accept it, after all it is a huge responsibility. And I wasn’t sure I wanted to take it, I mean, who am I to do great things? I can’t do it. Well I have come to find that is right. I can’t do it. But God can. And who lives in me? God! Who has called me to a specific purpose? God has! I have written this looking back at everything in my life, and noticing all of the accomplishments I have made have not come from me at all. God was working on me since birth, even before I acknowledged him. And it was through him that my accomplishments came, and whatever is in my future will come from him.
I had a friend tell me the other day, “Josh, you are a mover and a shaker.” That lit something inside of me, thinking about it now, it just brings tears to my eyes. Why me? I didn’t do anything to deserve to do great things! But that is what so many people see in me, great things waiting to be done. I thank you for the encouragement. All of you are awesome.
That is my passion, my heart-cry. To do great things for the glory of God. To change lives. When I leave this world, I don’t want to be remembered. I want people to remember the things that God did through me. I want to live a legacy that lasts way beyond my name. I want to change the world. So pray for me. Because I am definitely going to need it. And if you want to join me, come on! The world needs people who are going to do great things. And this I say to you:
“You are going to do great things.”